I bought diapers, now someone return my sanity.

After my panic of last week, I bought diapers.  Two big {Expensive!  Why don’t I remember how expensive diapers are??} boxes of diapers at Target.  Then I got into a fight with Dave because he wanted to put them in the basement and I don’t want them to smell like basement and he said, “why do you care if they smell like basement if she is going to shit in them?”  But I don’t want her butt to smell like basement so they are living in the dining room with the entire contents of our bedroom… yes… still.

I also bought 1100 wipes at Costco.  That should last her about the first month, right? 
And baby wash… though WTF Huggies Natural Care, WHERE did you go?  Probably hanging out with the All Baby Detergent that apparently disappeared as well.  Those were two of my favorite baby items with Finnegan and both are gone?  Bastards.  Now if I want that baby smell on her clothes I guess I am going to have to sell a kidney and buy Dreft? 

My sister also came over to go through countless giant boxes of baby crap.  It turns out that we have towels and tiny little baby socks and those thin flannel-y  blankets that are fabulous for swaddling.  We also have a surprising amount of clothes that are gender neutral enough for her to use. 

The rest I packed up and sent to my cousin’s house.  {Remember they have boy #3 arriving just a couple weeks before baby girl.}  It was liberating and I’ve got to say, bittersweet.  I can’t believe I will never have another boy.  I did pull a few very special things out that most reminded me of his infancy and put them in a box to keep for Finn.

I scheduled a hair appointment and I’m going to schedule my prenatal massage for this week.  I also scheduled every OB appointment until her due date.  People, there are just FIVE left.  By the end of the week, she will have an actual scheduled birthday.  

Wait… what?  You mean we’re actually having a baby? 

Dave and I were talking about how incredibly weird this feeling of impending parenthood is this time around.  Neither of us felt this anxious or petrified really if we’re being honest here, when we were awaiting Finn.  I blame it on the fact that the first time, no matter how prepped you think you are, you have no fucking clue what you’re in for.  I remember driving to the hospital to have Finn and just thinking, oh I hope I like him and he likes me.  Seriously, all you first time Mamas, bask in the glory of your cluelessness because the second time around you know what is coming… once they are out they are so much work, you know the sleeplessness, the pain of the shower hitting your newly engorged boobs, the fact that you will not eat a hot meal for the first six months, the poop, the frustration, it’s all coming for you. 

You just have to hope and pray that the baby giggles, the cooing, the snuggling and the sweet smell of newness {even if you have to sell a kidney to pay for it} make up for all the other stuff.


Edited to add... this is from Huggies because I am THAT crazy lady that asks WHY my favorite shit is gone...

Dear Michelle,
Thanks for your e-mail about HUGGIES® Bath and Body products.
Due to a marked decline in consumer preference, we are no longer manufacturing HUGGIES® Bath & Body products. These products were discontinued in 2009.  We regret that some of our loyal customers will be disappointed and apologize for any inconvenience.
With the hope that you will continue to use Kimberly-Clark products, we are sending you some cost-saving coupons through the mail.  Thanks again for contacting us and for giving us an opportunity to respond.  We value you as our customer.

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